2008 is coming to an end!!!! This year has been another year filled with ups and downs, and multiple hurdles. And I must really thank the usual group of people who stood by me all these while, who were there for me all the time, constantly giving me support and encouragement. I don't think i need to elaborate more, bcos everything is stated in the hand-made xmas card.... So, my dear monsters, even if u want to throw the card away, at least keep the piece of paper with the message on it!

I've worked at several places throughout the year and I must say I've really learnt alot from the people whom i met along the way. I've also made new friends along the way, some may be just aquaintances, but there are some whom i really treasure the friendship between us. I've gotten myself a new group of kakis to crap with and to share my joy and trouble with and i recruited a new member to my bread eating club... haha. I enjoyed and learnt the most when i was working at beatty and MCL. These were the 2 places that made me feel a sense of belonging working there and a feeling of emptiness after i stopped working. I really miss the people at these 2 workplaces, especially the usual group of people whom i lunch with and crap with. I really miss the familiar laughters and voices, the daily chit chat sessions and the nonsensical ideas that we come up with together. But, all good times must come to an end... so i guess it's really time to move on..... We'll still meet up for lunch or dinner soon :)

To all my friends and buddies, thanks for all the fun and joy that you have showered me with throughout the year! I'm really looking forward to another year of happiness and fun with you all.... Happy 2009 (in advance)!

Yes.... I shall update my blog....

Went for the Marathon yesterday, and I had the best run ever due to the people whom i ran with. It's because of these ppl ( Belinda, Gina & Glenda) that made the 10km seemed to be a brisk. We walked, jog, ran and crapped throughout the 10km. But Gina was luckier to spot some good-looking ones. Apparently she was the tourist of the group.

The sense of fulfilment at the finishing line was priceless. Sharing one another's accomplishment, giving one another 'high-tens' were part of the few memorable moments. And i'm really glad that I will have more running buddies next yr!!!!!

at our hotel

AT Bangkok Airport

the new identity( the shades)

My whole world just crashed last thursday. Well, it may sound exaggerating to many of you, but i think that's the best description to how i felt. I've never felt so lost, frighten, lonely and disappointed in the whole of my 20 years! Never! It became worse when i received a 2nd bomb 2 days after. The feeling was worse than horrible. I suddenly felt so tired and helpless.

However, these 2 bombs that had dropped on me had make me realised that i am blessed with a group of fabulous friends, who are really just a call away and a supportive family. They had been there to cheer me up, to boost my confidence, to tell me that all is not gone. They gave me the strength to move on, to think of my future, and brought me back to life. I must admit I'm really fortunate to have these people around me. This had also made me come to a conclusion that one does not need to have many friends around him/her. All you need is just one group of really good friends whom you know will be there no matter what happens, who will willingly lend you a helping hand, who will just keep quiet and let you rattle on and on, who will just sit quietly beside you and patiently wait till you're ready to talk; they know what you want even when you don't say it out and they know exactly what to say or do. I'm really grateful for having this group of friends in my life!

To the monsters: Thanks for meeting up with me straight away after I called. Thanks for spending time with me even though some of you have to work or have attachments the next day. Thank you for coming all the way to my house to cook for me, to help me with my letters and most importantly, keep me company. I really appreciate all that you've done for me. (: Thank YOU, my buddies!

To Yang: Thank you for spending time with me on the phone and let me cry my heart out. Thank you for crapping with me so that i'll forget the pain.

TO lilian: Thank you for talking to me on the phone till almost 2am just to cheer me up! You've done a good job! I'll tell your boss to increase your pay! Hahaha. Thank you for accompanying me to wherever i wanted to go. Thanks for meeting up with me to help me and cheer me up. :)

To my spy: Thanks for hiring lilian as your spy, to make sure i'm alright, to cheer me up, to update you and to make sure i'm not "suicidal". haha. Thanks for calling despite me rejecting your calls. Thanks for all ur smses and for "waking" me up by telling me not to sit down and feel miserable but to think of alternatives, to be prepared for the worst, to look on the bright side and remain positive. Thanks for meeting up with me to help me, to cheer me up. I'm really glad to have you as a friend. :)

A BIG Thank you to all those mentioned above. I'm feeling much better now, though i must admit that I still feel upset at times. But, i'll move on....

I finally understand how it feels like when others unknowingly just neglect ur feelings. I know it's not on purpose, and i'm not putting the blame on anyone. Just that i regret saying certain things unknowingly that might have hurt others or remind them of something unpleasant. I just feel that we've to be more observant and really think twice before we speak or get ourselves engrossed in a conversation. Because the feeling is horrible when everyone is talking abt something which u so much hope u can be involved, but somehow u just cant fit in or bcos u are uncertain of when u'll be able to join in the conversation.

My mood has been super duper down these 2 days, due to the feeling of anxiety and emptiness. I just cant wait to receive the replies from the various uni, be it good news or bad news. I'm tired of waiting, and to be honest, i'm not very optimistic about the replies. It makes me feel very frustrated. Everyone is planning for their future, aft being accepted or rejected. People are talking about the various uni courses that they want to choose, how are they going to spend uni life and so on. But here i am, still waiting for a letter ( hopefully not in vain). Everyone is asking me which uni i'm going, whether i've received any replies, why are they

taking so long etc etc.... COME ON! If i know the answer, I would not be

feeling so DOWN NOW!!!!! SO, just give me a break from all these nonsense! The feeling really sucks when everyone is talking about uni stuff and here i am wondering when i'll get the letter. It just pissed me off.

To make things worse, i no longer have work or challenging students to keep me occupied and not think about all these. Somehow i just wish that time can stand still and not let this term come to an end. When i'm all alone, memories of the past 2 terms just keep flashing in my mind. The good times, the bad times just keep coming to my mind. To be honest, i really miss those times, be it good or bad. I miss the fun-filled lunches, the other 3 comrades of mine, our spy (who did a wonderful job, though the msg might be delivered late at times) and ofcourse, my students. I just felt so empty when i woke up on Saturaday( 1 day aft the last day of sch). I just felt that life now is too peaceful for me to take it. It's an uncomfortable feeling that cant be described, or maybe i just don't know how to describe it. Relief teaching had really made me become a stronger person. It has allowed me to know how "dangerous" a workplace can be and how difficult it is to find someone whom u can trust and who is really your friend. I'm really glad that i was given this opportunity to widen my horizons. And i'm greatful for a wonderful boss/friend, who never fail to stand up for us, to protect us, to support us, to cheer us on, to lend us a listening ear and many many more. :) my 3 comrades who is always willing to help me, or sometimes even allow me to vent my frustrations and never fail to brighten my day. And not forgetting, the wonderful kids who are capable of making u mad and then make u happy again, who never fail to create trouble and then apologise to you. It's these people who make me feel sad to leave, who make me want to turn back time. But, i know, it's time to keep all these precious moments in my heart and move on. I know it's hard, but that's the reality of LIFE!

Yes... it has been a long long time since i last update my blog. So, i'm here to update to stop belinda and shu from nagging.



Have been busy with teaching for the past 2 and a half months and very soon, the one week break is gonna be over; which means, i'll be teaching again. This job has really made me realised that it is so much better to be a student. I finally understand the "hell" that my teachers went through ( not that i was a bad student). It's really not easy handling 40 students, especially the ones that i have. There are times when i really feel lyk giving up, handing in my resignation letter and just leave. But, i know i cant do it. I've to survive and conquer them. And yes, i managed to do it, after a long time. But, these devils can be angels at times. There are times when they will do little things that will touch your heart, putting in their best effort, trying their level best to do something funny, sourcing for jokes, etc, just to put a smile back on your face. They're the ones who will tell you truthfully that they respect you and how much they enjoy talking/crapping with you. They are the ones who wipe the smile off your face and then put it back again. They are the ones who bring tears to your eyes and then wipe it off. They may be devils, but they have their angelic side too.



Next.... 'A' level results!!!! My results were beyond my expectations. Though they're not straight As.. but i'm glad that i've made improvements and get to stand a chance to get into a uni,though i don't know how high my chances are. But, my hard work has paid off, and really thank my family and friends for being with me through this journey. Their encouragement and advice had indeed played a big part. My parents and relatives who never fail to give me their support. And ofcourse the 5 monsters. i really thank them from the bottom of my heart, for being there for me, for going out with me to relax, for their encouragement, for their faith in me and for the confidence they have in me and always telling me that i can do it. Really glad that i've these monsters by my side all these while. They're the ones who are willing to go all out, and never expect anything in return. And i'll definitely do likewise. Without these people by my side all these while, i might not be standing strong today and i would certainly not be able to achieve what i've achieved. So, Thanks for everything! :)

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